It’s been awhile. It’s especially been awhile since a non-For the Journey post. It wasn’t my intention to completely quit my regular posts when I started those. It’s just sort of what happened. Maybe I still remember how to do both though…
Weary. Exhausted. Bone-tired. Spent. All are appropriate descriptors for how I’ve felt lately. The causes: being super busy all the time, when as an introvert I love, crave even, peace and quiet; stress, all kinds of stress; storms, like the kind that just when you think you’ve weathered them, or at least almost weathered them, BAM—torrential downpour again. It’s great…just great. (If you were hoping for positive and uplifting, you should probably look elsewhere. Just kidding…I’ll try my best to get there.)
So, for probably a couple of months now, Isaiah 40:28 has been my verse: “Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary?” I’ve reminded myself countless times of late that when I’m tired and weary, my God’s not. This doesn’t magically make me less tired. It doesn’t make the rain from those storms I was talking about stop falling. Yet, there’s still great comfort in it.
Comfort in knowing when I’m running out of strength, I can rely on His endless supply. Comfort in knowing when I feel like I’m losing all control of my life and circumstances, He’s still in complete control. Comfort in knowing when I have no clue why things are working out the way they are, why my lot in life seems to be one disappointment after another and endless waiting for things to get better, He knows both what He’s doing in my life and what He’s allowing, which means just because things aren’t the way I would have them if I could have my way, doesn’t mean they’re not the way they should be. Comfort in knowing, even when God feels distant, He hasn’t abandoned me for a month-long vacation. He simply doesn’t work that way.
The remaining verses of Isaiah 40 contain further comfort, particularly the very popular Isaiah 40:31: “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” We’re going to grow weary and weak from time to time in this life. We simply can’t handle all the twists and turns, disappointments and frustrations, heartaches and sufferings that accompany life in a fallen world on our own. That said, the God who is never weary gives strength to those who wait on Him.
So, today, Isaiah 40:28 is still my verse. Today, I’m still pretty weary. But, I’m also waiting, trusting that, even though I may not know how or when, someday Isaiah 40:31 is going to be my verse, trusting that at exactly the right moment the Lord will renew my strength.